Current mood:	weird
Current music:	Jimmy Eat World - Pain and Firestarter

Please keep the reporters at bay
I havn't done this in a while so im probly rusty. I don't like my school that much, I have to keep my grades high in al my classes so they cross over wen i transfer, and now I seem to have grown apart from some of my friends. Like i know i really have no room to complain, my life has been pretty cushy, but i mean this hasnt been the easiest month and a half, and i really dont know what to do about it. I dont knwo if i can do anything about it. Like i want the time to be able to hang out with evry1 again and talk to them on a regular bases, but then I end up Fuckin up wen it comes to school. Random thought, Psyc SUCK!!! I can't help but have this terrible sense of urgency and resposibility wen it comes to planen for my future. Like I think my brain is aged more than the rest of me. This thinken also takes up alot of my time, i feel like i always need to be doing sumthing or else im waisten my time, like i can't jsut pick up the phone or sign online and jsut chat for and hour or so, i have to be doing sumthin. I need to lighten up.. ALOT. Like this weekend evry1 is going home and i wanna go home, Its even my 18th B day on sat but im gonna stay here. Like i have a few personal reasons, but i also have alotta work to get done and i know i wont get any done at home. 10 page resaerch project, 4 pager response paper, Country Profile assignment for Cuba (I hate Cuba), random HW that will be assigned on Friday, and psyc stuff which is the worst. I know ill see everyone again in the not to distant future, so please don't take it as i dont care about any1 anymore and have moved one. In fact i probly havnt moved on much at all. I miss havne people who knwo me and understadn me, and i jsut havn't had the motovation lately to really let new people get to know me. I think getting to know me, as with anyone, really takes a long time and alot of effort. Im jsut drained. Most people probly won't read this all and skip to then end cuz i know i probly wouldn't read it all so ill write the real impt. stuff at the end. If you think I've changed as a person please tell me so we can talk, or if u think i've grown apart from sum1 tell me. I'm sorry for not being able to really KIT with evry1. This whole thing probly could have been written better but im a lil tired so its sorta half hashed jsut random talking so forgive that too. P.S. Ben Folds and new J.E.W. rocks