Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in gimienovacaine's LiveJournal:

Monday, March 28th, 2005
8:18 pm	This goes out to some... and I think evey1 knows who its is. Ok so this is a Plain white T's song, with a few personal alterations. I'm putting it here because i havn't updated in a while and I know someone who wants something good to read to help her trip go little faster. To everyone else that reads this feel free to comment on how corney it is. Gracias hey there Jamie Lynn whats it like in that Europe city im a thousand miles away but girl tonight you look so pretty yes you do Picadilly cant shine as bright as you i swear its true hey there Jamie Lynn dont you worry about the distance im right there if you get lonely give this song another listen close your eyes listen to my voice its my disguise im by your side hey there Jamie Lynn ive got so much left to say if every simple song i wrote to you would take your breath away id write it all even more in love with me youd fall we'd have it all a thousand miles seems pretty far but they've got planes and trains and cars id walk to you if i had no other way our friends would all make fun of us and we'll just laugh along because we know that none of them have felt this way Jamie i can promise you that by the time that we get through the world will never ever be the same and youre to blame hey there Jamie Lynn you be good and dont you miss me few more years and youll be done with school and ill be makin history like i do you know its all because of you we can do whatever we want to hey there Jamie Lynn heres to you this ones for you Its what you do to me... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
9:04 pm	So its been a while. Hello everyone, its been quite some time since the last update... a really really long time, but i jsut thought id write to get some things off my chest. First off im at Desalles now rooming with merf across the hall from simons and gallagher. Things are much beter here than deleware. I like my classes, with only 2 real exception Math and Eng. Math because its math and no1 likes math, and secondly Eng becasue its soooo boring. The people are better, the whole environment is better. I was in a real bad place in deleware and for the first time in a while im bringne myself back up to my old self one step at a time. There is only 1 thing missing, and that is my girl. Jamie is taking a semester abroad studying in London until April 25th. In the weeks headin up to her departure i wasnt worried or upset really, i figured enjoy the time we have and not let the future upset thing. Jamie took it really bad, she was scared and second geussing her decision. Like she wasnt about to pul out of a dream trip to London, but she jsut didnt want to leave everything she knew. Also we had become closer in the previous weeks because the occasions on which we saw each other increased, like we seriously spent more time together over break and the last few weeks in Deleware than any other time in our relationship. I got used to her and vice versa. Now we have been ripped apart by not just a thousand miles of land and sea, but also a 5 hour difference in time. Like it sucks. Talking on the phone and online is even hard because of our scheduels and the call costs, but also the internet in her building doesn't work. BOO european technology. I just cant wait till we can hang out and be semi normal again. The little things i took advantage of, like being able to call and talk wenever i want, I miss terribly. They became a part of my life and now they are gone. Like i know i should be happier because im in a new college surrounded by better people, but even that isnt as easy as i first made it out to be in my head. I've always had trouble with that, especially when what i had was soo good. Like My house, my family ...i still miss them. The one thing that helped me the most is no longer here. Blah thats just kinda sucks. But hey I have managed to convince my parents to let me travel across that little lake called the atlantic and visit Jamie in London. My trip will probly happen around March 4th or so, my spring break from school. That should be amazing. Its jsut gona hit my wallet pretty hard. Alrite thats about the jist of the situation, man it really does feel good to jsut write that out. If anyone feels compeled to reply please do. P.S. Eagles game today... Fucking insane. Current Mood: I want my bubas back (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 17th, 2004
11:50 am	So yea friday i found this lump under my chin, like under my jaw bone but towards the center. It doesnt cause me any pain, but thats what i hear is the worst kind. I tryed not to think about it that much, but now i can't get it off my mind. Im really fucken scared. People keep tellin me i need to have it chekced, I KNOW THAT, there nothing more i want then to have a DR. actually diagnose it but the closest appoinmtnet i could get with a doctor in next weds . NEXT WEDS.!!! i mean not knowing what it is is bad enough, but i have to wait to even get it checked out for the 1st time. It really really sucks. Like im seriously so scared rite now its not even funny. I jsut got off the phone with my parents and they don't know what to do. Like no1 has any answers. I can't take this. Current Mood: gloomy (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 29th, 2004
4:02 pm	I won't go down by myself, But I'll go down with my FRIENDS!! MCR good band This is gonna be a quick one cuz i have to eat dinner soon and i wanted to post something befor the weekend cuz i know im gona be pretty plastered. I love Halloween, it's a close second to Christmas, only cuz Christmas has the presents edge. I had a small revelations a few days ago. Normally im pretty chill and well balanced, at least i think so, but thats only because i always have some outlet for this rediculous energy that just build up inside me. Wether it be concerts, parties, or acten retarded with friends i need a release cause i havn't had a really good one in a while. Desalles last Sat. was good but only one nite is not good enough. Around here doesn't alot me that release, like i try but it jsut doesn't follow through well or feel rite. Like Thurs. while walking in Hulihan Hall i decided it would be fun to try a front roll flip on lynolium floor, it hurt but it was fun. I was looked at like a psycho, i geuss thats partially true. I've been listenen to the new My Chem. Romance CD and it's really really good, evrytime i listen to it it jsut adds to that energy that i have, and it's wierd cuz i sorta like it. All i know is wen the oppurtunity comes for me to let loose, I'm going to take full advantage. Hey it may even be this weekend. Im going to be a mental patient for all Hallows Eve so its sort of fitting. Happy Halloween all. Current Mood: energetic Current Music: My Chem. Romance - Thanks For the Venom (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 14th, 2004
12:15 am	Please keep the reporters at bay I havn't done this in a while so im probly rusty. I don't like my school that much, I have to keep my grades high in al my classes so they cross over wen i transfer, and now I seem to have grown apart from some of my friends. Like i know i really have no room to complain, my life has been pretty cushy, but i mean this hasnt been the easiest month and a half, and i really dont know what to do about it. I dont knwo if i can do anything about it. Like i want the time to be able to hang out with evry1 again and talk to them on a regular bases, but then I end up Fuckin up wen it comes to school. Random thought, Psyc SUCK!!! I can't help but have this terrible sense of urgency and resposibility wen it comes to planen for my future. Like I think my brain is aged more than the rest of me. This thinken also takes up alot of my time, i feel like i always need to be doing sumthing or else im waisten my time, like i can't jsut pick up the phone or sign online and jsut chat for and hour or so, i have to be doing sumthin. I need to lighten up.. ALOT. Like this weekend evry1 is going home and i wanna go home, Its even my 18th B day on sat but im gonna stay here. Like i have a few personal reasons, but i also have alotta work to get done and i know i wont get any done at home. 10 page resaerch project, 4 pager response paper, Country Profile assignment for Cuba (I hate Cuba), random HW that will be assigned on Friday, and psyc stuff which is the worst. I know ill see everyone again in the not to distant future, so please don't take it as i dont care about any1 anymore and have moved one. In fact i probly havnt moved on much at all. I miss havne people who knwo me and understadn me, and i jsut havn't had the motovation lately to really let new people get to know me. I think getting to know me, as with anyone, really takes a long time and alot of effort. Im jsut drained. Most people probly won't read this all and skip to then end cuz i know i probly wouldn't read it all so ill write the real impt. stuff at the end. If you think I've changed as a person please tell me so we can talk, or if u think i've grown apart from sum1 tell me. I'm sorry for not being able to really KIT with evry1. This whole thing probly could have been written better but im a lil tired so its sorta half hashed jsut random talking so forgive that too. P.S. Ben Folds and new J.E.W. rocks Current Mood: weird Current Music: Jimmy Eat World - Pain and Firestarter (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 6th, 2004
12:55 am	May he finally get some respect.... Wow i jsut found out from Cas's post that Rodney Danger field has died, which actually sadens me because he was the last of the old fashioned comedians, and one of my personal favorite. If you don't know any of his work other than caddy shack i suggest u check out some of his stand up from hi early to middle career. Also i jsut finished watchen Farenhiet 911 with merf and sum people and all i have to say is that if you plan on voting for Bush you have no idea what you are doing. The man is an idiot who has never been removed from high society where evrything is provided for him. He is desensitized to anything other than his own welfare and the welfare of his "buisness partners" I can't decide on a Rodney quote to end with so ill jsut put a few *If it weren't for pickpockets, I'd have no sex life at all. *My uncle's dying wish - he wanted me on his lap....He was in the electric chair *I'm at the age where food has taken the place of sex in my life. In fact, I've just had a mirror put over my kitchen table. *My wife is always trying to get rid of me. The other day she told me to put the garbage out. I said to her I already did. She told me to go and keep an eye on it. *A girl phoned me the other day and said .... "Come on over, there's nobody home." I went over. Nobody was home. 83 YEARS YOUNG (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
1:13 am	Answers are a rare commodity She said i can't take this place, I'm leaven it behind. She said i can't take this town, I'm leavin you tonight. (Previous lyrics..... In thier entirety) Remember, whatever It seems like forever ago The regrets are useless In my mind She's in my head I must confess The regrets are useless She's in my head From so long ago...go...go...go... (Comment on this)
Monday, October 4th, 2004
12:11 pm	Good weekend Ah yes it was a mighty fine weekend. Something Corporate kicked ass, way better than the 1st time i saw em. The lead singer is the man, he would play the piano with his feet and had like 3 microphones so he could run around, play the piano, and sing at the same time. Konstantine was badass, and they encouraged Free downloading (Kiss my ass Lars). I crowd surfed for the 1st time in like 3 years which was cool cuz that made me Drunken Ted Blooms hero for like 5 mins. Yea Drunk Ted is amazing, his YYEAAAA is so much better than little John's. Also Murf told me good stuff bout his DSU trip, next semester OMG it will be nutz. He told stories to our fellow hallmates and they were like in shock people did stuff like hold retarded convorsations about nothing, give out beer in suit jackets, smoke out a car while driven, and try to buy parken spaces for thier bikes. And i also discoverd this weekend that Silver Tide is the best Fucken driven music EVER! I've got 3 CD's in rotation SIlver tide , THe Used, and Green DAy, each one a fine piece of work. Alrite thats about it, im pretty psyched, Goin to See Napolean Dynamite with a fun group of females on Weds., and there shall be visitors this weekend. Yesssssssssssssssssss (ND style). Im goin to End with a reall cheesy ending, quoting a song. It's just that i love this song and i jsut want to write the best part from it. I suggest you DL the song and listen to it also Green Day - Whatsername Remember, whatever It seems like forever ago And in the darkest nite If my memory serves me right I'll never turn back time Forgetting you, but not the time Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: The Used - I caught Fire (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, October 1st, 2004
12:24 pm	Ok lets see.. Alrite i talked to some people about the MT hosue and hopefully it al works out (Please God) so yea. Im writting now because this is my 3 hours time span between classes on M W F. I was hopen on stayen in Del. this weekend cuz I'v only been here two, three weekends so far, but there is a greater cause coming up in philly. I know for a fact im goin to be here next weekend because im haven visitors. Last nite was pretty sweet, I went to check out a local band with mcarthy and some people from around here. We probly saw about 10 mins of the band then went to go play pool. Me and Mike came out champs with our 2 wins outta 3, and it is true, Mike is the scratch king. After that we went to eat and got back here round 10 30 - 11. Wehn i got back i got rushed into Beth's room becuz they were watchin fight club, the movie is indeed hardcore. I was enjoying fight club fo rabout the 50th time until sum1 intereupted with the blue collar comedy tour, which i have never seen, so decisions where made and fight clab was swaped. Rednecks are some funny people. Ne who thats bout it i leave with my Fav quote from last nite, "YOU might be a redneck if some says throw a HoDown, and you toss your wife to the floor". (Comment on this)
11:51 am	Mt House Wow... i was jsut informed abotu the MT. house situation and thats fucken gay. (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 30th, 2004
2:58 pm	Breakin the seal Ah lets see where to begin. I guess everyone wants my in depth view on college life. College is pretty good, i like the freedom of being on my own and the schedueling of classes. Theres a wide variety of people to meet and I'v met some pretty cool ones that i won't forget, but as always things arn't perfect. Some people just need to lighten up and stop actin To Cool For School. Like all the dumb characteristics people lost in the laid back feeling of senior year in highschool come back now that they are put back into an unfamiliar setting. Like everyone is always trying to top the other person, and not even people you really know, just like random people. I find myself walking with other guys and they just randomly pick out people walking toward them, driving in a car, or something else and saying to themselves "Yea i could beat him up". Who cares???? I mean who honestly gives a shit, why do people constantly need to have this feeling of superiority? I just don't get it, but whatever, i can't do anyhting about it so might as well try and enjoy myself the best I can while im stuck here. Ne who, partys are so so, I've been to both house and Apt. and my judgement is houses are better because theres more room. Once again things arn't perfect in this situatuion either. In a big party you come with your friends, maybe meet a couple there and hang with them the whole nite, like it's not that personal, It's not like evryone there knows each other. Soo many strangers. I geuss that concludes my 1st entry, and i want to end it with saying I miss everyone. My family, my friends, you are the people who have always been there to keep me steady in times of doubt, and keep a smile on my face in times of depression. Thank you for reading and Buy the new Green Day album. Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Green Day - boulevard of broken dreams (4 Comments |Comment on this)
2:58 pm	Breakin the seal Ah lets see where to begin. I geuss evryone wants my in depth view on college life. College is pretty good, i like the freedom of being on my own and the schedueling of classes. Theres a wide variety of people to meet and I'v met some pretty cool ones that i won't forget, but as always things arn't perfect. Some people just need to lighten up and stop actin To Cool For School. Like all the dumb characteristics people lost in the laid back feeling of senior year in highschool come back now that they are put back into an unfamiliar setting. Like everyone is always trying to top the other person, and not even people you really know, just like random people. I find myself walking with other guys and they just randomly pick out people walking toward them, driving in a car, or something else and saying to themselves "Yea i could beat him up". Who cares???? I mean who honestly gives a shit, why do people constantly need to have this feeling of superiority? I just don't get it, but whatever, i can't do anyhting about it so might as well try and enjoy myself the best I can while im stuck here. Ne who, partys are so so, I've been to both house and Apt. and my judgement is houses are better because theres more room. Once again things arn't perfect in this situatuion either. In a big party you come with your friends, maybe meet a couple there and hang with them the whole nite, like it's not that personal, It's not like evryone there knows each other. Soo many strangers. I geuss that concludes my 1st entry, and i want to end it with saying I miss everyone. My family, my friends, you are the people who have always been there to keep me steady in times of doubt, and keep a smile on my face in times of depression. Thank you for reading and Buy the new Green Day album. Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Green Day - boulevard of broken dreams (1 Comment |Comment on this)